My Bottle of Love !!

The last sharp left turn and I caught the first glimpse of the sea from my car. 

Pure azure as it was always.

The fathomless dark blue water, the winds, and the sand on the beach… nothing had changed. They say “time and tide waits for none” and neither has it ever … for anyone, hence I was no exception. But amongst the continuous change which the world seems to undergo almost every day, every hour – this sea was something which had still managed not to change.

The moment I stepped out of the car I felt the breeze touch my face …just the way as it had for the first time , I smiled and took a deep breath as I closed my eyes ..things are still the same aren’t they , except for the fact that she is not here with me anymore.

I and Mish had visited this place right after our wedding. This was where we had our first pleasure ride after completing the rituals, the relatives and those endless invites. This was where we took our stroll for the very first time hand in hand , still adjusting to each other’s presence, still loving each other’s company…

Absorbing the feel I started reciting the lines of Tagore .....

“I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times…
In life after life, in age after age, forever.
My spellbound heart has made and remade the necklace of songs,
That you take as a gift, wear round your neck in your many forms,
In life after life, in age after age, forever”

Mish promised “If I ever get angry, recite these lines for me and trust me I will come running into your arms”. Brimming with emotions and filled with happiness we took our first walk, hand in hand, holding each other tightly so that we could stop the time; stop the sun from setting….

I am standing at the same place, years have passed. Years have passed that we started our nest of love, years have passed our kids came into the world and years had passed that I was alone in the world without Mish.  The sea, the sun all the same except that a piece of my soul was missing.

Clinging on to the same hope that kept me alive I took a deep breath and hoping she would come back running into my arms I said …

“You and I have floated here on the stream that brings from the fount.
At the heart of time, love of one for another.
We have played along side millions of lovers, shared in the same
Shy sweetness of meeting, the same distressful tears of farewell-
Old love but in shapes that renew and renew forever.

I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times…
In life after life, in age after age, forever.
My spellbound heart has made and remade the necklace of songs,
That you take as a gift, wear round your neck in your many forms,
In life after life, in age after age, forever.”

I will keep my love all bottled up for you ….and even death cannot do us apart!!!!